4 Months

* 17 weeks*

Alright so, after my last rant I figure it's time to catch up on what's been going on with you and all that. I have been a little lax in keeping up with this blog. So, heres a rundown of the last few weeks, some highs, some lows and all that jazz.

Hmm.... Where to start.

Lets start with things I am incredibly thankful for these days. I am thankful that I have a family who is uber excited for you. Your aunties are ecstatic about you and love you so much already. They make me happy just hearing them talk about you.

*that's me and your aunty r comparing bellayyys haha*

I am thankful for Kimber. She is the equivalent of a glass of wine (or three) these days. Since I can't relax with a glass of wine I have her. She always knows what to say and how to make me laugh. I am so thankful for her in my life and the laughter she brings. It's amazing the good things that can come out of bad things. I am also super thankful for the support group this pregnancy has created. I love my counselor (who just keeps telling me I am NOT crazy, I'm normal) and my midwives (also, to reassure me I am not crazy, I AM normal) and the ultrasound clinic who will tell me what you are without charging a ridiculous amount of money. Which brings me to my final I am thankful for today, I am thankful I get to find out what you are in less then 3 weeks :)

I am NOT thankful for heartburn. It sucks. I had never experienced it pre pregnancy and I hope it goes away. All I keep thinking is if it is this bad now how much worse will it get over the next 5 months. Ughhhhhhhh. I also am not loving the not being able to sleep through the night thing. Again, how much worse is this going to get. It used to be that I would think "oh, gotta go pee, it can wait til....." NO, there is no waiting now. When I have to go I have to go, at least once during the night too. Other disadvantage, I can no longer bend at the waist without immediately feeling like I am going to pass out. Awesome. Laying flat, even better, instant heartburn AND the pass out feeling. Hello extra pillows.

I can feel you moving more definitely now. I was driving home last night and had my first OH moment. Took me a second to realize that it was YOU! Just reminding me that you're in there and alive. I am so looking forward to real kicks and such (until they start to hurt, then I will be complaining about them haha) and a real bellay not this beer gut thing. You seem to love citrus fruits, although they cause unbelievable heart burn I'm on an aprx 5 a day mandarin orange habit with a few kiwis and maybe a pineapple thrown in too. Yeah I know, no wonder I have heartburn. Your dad and I are also trying to be nice to each other. We finally talked which is good. Baby steps I guess. I bought an angel care monitor so you don't die of SIDS. Another YAY! Thank God for some of the miracles of modern technology. Mostly my iPhone but some other stuff is cool too lol.

The leaves are all changing and Halloween is coming (hurry up and GROW so I can paint my belly like a pumpkin!) and then winter. And then you. Weird to think that I am almost half done growing you. It seems like for every emotion I am feeling right now there is a conflicting one. Excited and Nervous. Like time is crawling and like it is speeding by. Happy but Sad. Confident and Insecure.

I guess that is what being a parent is all about.........